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Guest (Female): The marriage got worse and worse and it was just tough and tougher.

Guest (Male): Fighting a lot. Split custody. One week at my dad’s, one week at my mom’s.

Devi: I lose three jobs in a row. These demons would torment me night and day. I was emotionally controlled. I said, "I'm done." I said, "God, I'm done. I'm tired. What else do you want from me, God? Is it Jesus?"

I don't know anybody. I only know him, and I hardly know him. He's an engineer, so he was just working for a company. He's Hindu too, and I was probably more devout than him at that point for sure.

My first daughter was born four years into the marriage. Then about a year and a half later, I had my second daughter. Five years later after that, I had my son. The children kept me going. The marriage was very hard overall. The marriage got worse and worse and it was just tough and tougher.

Guest (Female): The way that they acted towards us with love and care, they didn't really act that way towards each other. Ever since I was four or five, they had been fighting a lot. I don't think either of them were very happy.

Devi: These demons would torment me night and day. The spiritual realm had come after me from every which side. My husband, I'm coming home and I'm getting yelled at. He was so angry. It was a time of absolute hell for me. I was married for 13 years exactly, pretty much exactly.

Guest (Male): I was really young when they got divorced, so the farthest back that I can remember is just being in a split custody.

Devi: Two years old for my son, my daughter was seven, and then my older daughter was nine.

Guest (Male): We'd go back between the houses very often. One week at my dad's, one week at my mom's, and then we'll switch occasionally.

Guest (Female): We have to pack up all of our stuff, think ahead, and make sure like, "Oh, I'm going to be at this house on Friday, so I have to make sure to have this."

Guest (Male): It's difficult at some times, but that's just the way it's been and that's the way I've gotten used to.

Guest (Female): I feel like we have a really strong bond, me, my brother, and sister. My siblings and I were always together. We get each other more than anybody else would get us.

The first couple of years was kind of hard because both of them were trying to get through it. At this point, maybe I'd understand that they're going through something. As a little kid, you don't really understand why maybe they're not as peppy as they usually are. If they're going through a particularly hard day, you just don't understand why you being extra loud that day makes them more annoyed than they usually would be.

Devi: I'm out in the world. I'm trying not to date or anything, but I'm hurting. I'm really hurting. So I'm like, "Maybe somebody can heal me." I'm thinking outside, but that's not the right way to go anyway. I think with women, what we do is we're hurting inside and we think if we just find the right man, I'll feel better now. But that's not how it works. That pain is still there. I'm still hurting. I haven't healed.

I'm trying to navigate this whole new world with my babies and I lose three jobs in a row. As a consultant, they'd find a way to make me look bad or say something that wasn't even true. But every time they tried to get rid of me, God would put me in a higher position. I went from an analyst to a vice president in two years.

In that last role, God was doing some intriguing things. I used to have to travel to New York. Six months prior to me losing that job, a Lyft driver came to my house, an Iranian man who had left Iran and converted to Christianity. I'm just randomly selecting a Lyft driver and this is who comes to my door.

I think it was the third trip. I'm off to New York again and he says to me, "Jesus is missing from your life." That's the last thing I expect a Lyft driver to tell me. Because I didn't know better and it's part of our culture, I would read palms. I just had a gift to see things on people's hands. I know you believe in Jesus, but my mom is such a kindly lady and she believes in God and she's so nice. But I let it go. I just let it go.

It was October. I had just been told that I'd been let go from that job. I was upstairs in the closet and I had a conversation with God. I said, "I'm done. God, I'm done. I'm tired." I was so exhausted. I said, "What do you want from me? What else do you want from me, God? Is it Jesus? Is this who you want from me?" That Lyft driver told me about Jesus a few times now and I kind of put it at the back of my head. The Lyft driver had said Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. So this is all I remember about Jesus.

"Okay, God. If he's the one you want me to find, if this is where I'm going to find peace, if this is the truth, I need to find it. I need to know." I just knew I had to know about this Jesus person. Now I embark on a six-month journey. My "Jesus journey" is what I call it. I start to open the Bible. I didn't even know there was an Old Testament and a New Testament.

I was going into the history of stuff. There's evidence about the plagues of Exodus and evidence about the flood. I'm doing all my scientific research too and I'm reading the Bible. Things are clicking and my neurons are ignited. It was awesome. Remember, I never read any other Bible in my life. I never even touched the Hindu one, the Bhagavad Gita, so this is coming alive for me. Even though I'd read palms and astrology, it was just different. It was so different. It was like more pure, if there's a better word to use. It was so in-your-face pure.

I got intrigued. I was like, "Man, who is this Jesus?" I remember being right in this sitting room and I watched the crucifixion of Christ. I watched the whole story of Jesus's birth and then how he got crucified. I saw the crucifixion for the first time in my life and I cried and I cried. I was sobbing. I was in deep grief.

"Why did they do this to him, God? Why would they hurt him like that?" I couldn't understand the torture and the pain. I just couldn't understand why they'd do that to him. In that moment, I fell in love with Jesus. I was like, "So he died for me?" That got me. That really got me.

So there came a day when the Lyft driver, whom I hadn't seen him for quite a while, said, "Oh, there's a Bible study today." God said, "You gotta go." I felt that in my spirit, but I didn't understand all those words then. I just knew that's what I had to do. I go to the Bible study and I walk in this house and it has little crosses. I walk in and I feel a peace. I was like, "What is this?"

It wasn't what I'd felt before. It was a different energy. They sing and they do something called worship. They read some verse in some Bible. At the end of it, we're all holding hands. That's what you do, apparently. Seven people there including the Lyft driver. Everybody prays and they say what they want. People were praying for their families. I thought, "Oh, that's nice."

Then it comes to my turn and I'm burning inside. I am burning. Is Jesus the way, the truth, and the life? I had to know the answer. I looked up to God and I said, "Tell me." I yelled it out. I said, "Tell me." He knew what I needed. As soon as I said that, a force came over me like a powerful wind. A gust of wind came over me and luckily there was a sofa behind me and I fell on the sofa.

There's all this fire or something in me, so much energy in me. Immediately, I start to speak this new language. I don't even understand what this is. I was as clueless as they come. I didn't know what the Holy Spirit was. I didn't know what speaking in tongues was. All this is happening to me. Even through all that, I sensed something behind me. I put my hand on the sofa on the armrest and I feel something touch my hand.

Then I look up and there is Jesus. I come face to face with the Messiah. Time stood still and I fell into his eyes. He had so much love in his eyes. I hadn't really understood love until that point. That was it for me. I was done. I belonged to him. I never turned back. From that moment, I never went back to the idols. I was sold. God himself, God of the universe, the God that spoken to me since I was four years old, he answered my petition. He's real. He's the way, he's the truth, and he's the life.

Guest (Female): We were confused and it kind of turned to anger.

Guest (Male): I was raised Hindu.

Devi: Excited as I was, I almost pushed them away. "You have to believe in Him." I started going to church and we'd have to go with her. Every time we'd get in the car, there'd be a fight. I had a confrontation with my daughter. She'd go in front of the idols. I didn't know if my daughter was going to come back or not. "Why are you just being different from our entire family?" God called me on the carpet. "Do you trust me with your children?"

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