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Jen Babakhan: But when that time frame becomes so imminent, you suddenly have this perspective of none of the things that you thought matter matter. They they they don't matter anymore.

John Fuller: That's Jen Babakhan and she's describing some unique perspectives there about priorities and what to do when someone you love has a terminal illness. Jen is back with us again today on Focus on the Family with Jim Daly. I'm John Fuller and thank you for joining us.

Jim Daly: John, we had a powerful conversation last time with Jen and a topic that, you know, we do I think we've done 4,000 programs right around there. We don't do any of these when we talk about uh you know, when a loved one is on the brink of death. How do we process that? What's our grief process? How do we approach it as believers in Jesus? And then how do we communicate that to our children or grandchildren, whatever it might be? Excellent content for all of us to think about and prepare for. It's a good thing and hopefully we as Christians do it differently than the world.

I my heart breaks for the world if you think about it where they don't have a framework for what to believe in that this is it. I mean, that's got to feel very empty and a good reason for us to pray for an unbelieving world that they might embrace Christ. You know, in John 11 25 26 it says, whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live. And everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. That's our hope and our trust and that gives us the bedrock for our discussion today.

John Fuller: Yeah, and uh we have so many resources here to help you with this kind of a journey. Call us 800 a family to schedule a time with one of our counselors. Um we'd be happy to offer a free over the phone consultation with you. Now our guest, as I said, is Jen Babakhan and she is an author and a speaker and she's written uh her own personal journey through this kind of a loss and she offers great insight in the book Disrupted Finding Peace with the Parent's Terminal Illness. And you can learn more about Jen and uh her various activities and resources and this great book on our website.

Jim Daly: Jen, welcome back.

Jen Babakhan: Thank you so much. Happy to be here.

Jim Daly: Yeah. It's you know, it's good. It is a good thing to talk about. It's a difficult thing to talk about, but we as Christians should not shrink back from talking about difficult things, right? That's part of the journey of life. You know, so often we think as Christians that being on the mountaintop is the goal, especially in the West. We're so goal oriented that you know, if we just remove all the discomfort of life, then we're blessed and we can stay on the mountaintop. But my experience has been you want a taste of the Lord, go to the valley.

That's where you're going to find him in in fullness and it's in our brokenness that we feel the closest to him, I believe. Even in scripture that says he's close to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit. So when you enter into an event like the death of a spouse or death of a parent or grandparent,

Jen Babakhan: Mhm. Mhm. Mhm.

Jim Daly: that is a broken place. I mean, it it puts everything right in front of you. The things you didn't say, the things you wish you said, the fight that you had with that loved one and you regret having it and now you could start to recriminate all of that and get into a bad place. Your mom was diagnosed initially with terminal cancer with 6 to 8 weeks to live. We covered that last time and if you missed it, go back and listen to it, get the app or do what you can cuz it was well worth the listen to.

But in that context, you ended up living almost 3 years and in anticipating that, you described in the book Living Many Little Deaths. Describe that.

Jen Babakhan: Yeah, so you know, I think that for my family, once that kind of bomb drops um along the way, you you already sort of start losing things. So while your parent is still living, you lose a sense of normalcy um in the sense that, you know, um your parent is now undergoing treatment or you just aren't viewing life the same way anymore. Um you know, it's impacting your daily life. I remember with my boys, I would be, you know, absentmindedly making lunch or dinner or whatever and um because my mind was on my mom and what was coming up and so there is that death of normalcy.

Um you know, my parents, my father had retired. They were both retired at the time uh just recently and so we always envisioned for them a time of traveling and and joy and fun and all of that and instead they were tied down to weekly chemotherapy and radiation treatments. Um and so you know, those sorts of deaths along the way just kind of remind you that um that there is loss and there is grief in this process before your loved one actually passes and I don't know if that's something that um people that haven't experienced this um understand very well.

But for those families that are walking through it, that journey along the way, even if they're you know, parent is going through successful treatment, it's a sacrifice and it 's a change for everyone.

Jim Daly: Oh, it it definitely is. You also mentioned in the book about finding peace. You know, sometimes this can be a frustrating pursuit and you can tell the difference. I mean, that's something that I would say, not just in the case of losing a parent uh or a parent with terminal illness, but every aspect of life. And you know, I think learning those lessons as a boy in some ways that I was blessed to have learned. I find it when I 'm talking to somebody about the peace of God, you can see the frustration for them that it's not within reach for them and there's no way for me to construct a ladder.

It's about you and God. It's not about the person talking to you. All you know is that it 's a better place to be when you can find the peace of God. You mentioned that in the context of Romans 12 18. What's that verse? What did it mean to you and how did you apply it to your mom?

Jen Babakhan: Right. So you know, Paul tells us, you know, as far as it depends on you, live as Yeah, as far as it depends on you, live peaceably with everyone. And so for me, that was twofold. That was living at peace with my mom and really finding peace in our relationship and knowing that while it wasn't perfect, it was ours and making the most of the time that we had left. And it was in those final years that I felt like I had the relationship with her that I had always dreamed that I would have. And so finding that peace both with your parent or your loved one, but then finding that peace with God, sometimes finding that peace with God is the harder piece of the puzzle because he's in charge of everything.

So why is he allowing this to happen? And I I don't have the perfect answer for that, but I think that as he is leading the ill person on their own journey back home to him, he is using that to transform your own life and the lives of everyone that love that person because I know I can say that I am not who I was prior to her diagnosis. Um and I think my family would say the same, that this journey that we have walked together and with God um has been one of truth and of peace and coming to that place of of trust that even in these darkest moments, he's still going to bring good from it.

It's not going to feel good, but he's going to bring good from it.

Jim Daly: You know, another component and we could spend a little time here was this idea of in essence memorializing that person before they die. And we had a great example here at Focus. Kurt Leander, who works on the team, came up with the idea of honoring Pep Jackson, who worked here for many years. He went on to work for Young Life and then Rick Warren. But he he really uh contributed to this ministry and we used to refer to Dr. Dobson and Pep Jackson as brothers of a different mother. They just connected well and and really complemented each other and and uh and so we threw him a 75th birthday party.

He was already diagnosed with uh cancer and we knew that timeline was ticking. But we did that party. We had 500 people show up including Rick Warren and Denny Rydberg and many other Christians. And it was just amazing to see people love on him and he felt it. He was surprised. He didn't know ahead of time. He walked into the ballroom and just wow. Now that's a big party, but you can do so many things in so many different ways to let your diagnosed uh loved one know that they are loved and appreciated before they pass away.

Speak to that. What we did for my mom, we did a couple of things. So we wanted my boys to have memory books of her voice and her reading stories to them. And so we recorded those and that was something that um that we cherished and and we're so glad that we did. Um but one of the other things that we did and this was right after her diagnosis, it was her um 64th birthday. Um we decided to get her a puppy. And and that was maybe something that people wouldn't automatically assume would be what you would get someone that's dying, but we knew that it would bring joy into the scenario.

And when we gave her that puppy in a a birthday gift bag, we were at the beach. We were spending a lovely day on the beach. She had no idea what was happening and so when she opened up that gift bag and saw this little 2 lb ball of fluff, it um I mean, it just was a moment that I'll cherish forever. And it did. It did. And And that dog, of course, now is with my dad providing comfort and um and joy. And it was just one of those times in life where holding that sorrow and that joy together at the same time, she was going to go get her chemotherapy port that next Monday and this was a Saturday.

And even in the midst of that, we were celebrating her birthday, celebrating her life um and laughing and experiencing joy. So I think the more you can do that with someone that's in the midst of a hard time and provide opportunities for laughter, the better it is for everyone. You know, expanding on that a little bit, a good friend of mine, Randy, who's a donor to Focus as well. So Randy, if you're listening, this is for you. But he mentioned to me that it 's wise to, you know, take your phone, do a video for your spouse, do a video for your kids, do a video for each of your kids, do a video for each of your grandkids if you have grandchildren.

And that I haven't done that yet, but I I want to and I need to. I want to put that away and park it in the clouds somewhere so that once I'm gone, Trent can download that video for him and hear what I have to say for him. And but thinking through that thing uh and thinking through that activity is really a good thing. Your children, your spouse, they'll be blessed. Think about it. You can recognize it and put your own touch to it. I 'm sure mine would be humorous, but um you know, just such a touch and a a piece of you goes with that and a blessing to your family members.

Jen Babakhan: Absolutely. My mom wrote each of us letters and I have reread it uh during my most difficult times. Um and one of the things she said is that I will be waiting at the gates with arms wide open um when it's your turn to come. And I just think as you said, the gift of having that is priceless. And for those of us that aren't looking at a finite timeline, you know, in the next 6 to 8 weeks, it's still something that that we should consider doing um because we don't know when the end will be for us.

It it has meant so much to me and my brother and um and my dad as well to have those.

Jim Daly: Well, and you keep coming back to that. But in so many ways that becomes one of your most cherished possessions, right?

Jen Babakhan: Oh, absolutely.

Jim Daly: That would you know, I can't remember my mom's voice as an example. I mean, I lost that memory years ago. I just couldn't remember her voice and that bothers me. You know, I remember the actions and the great sense of humor she had, but can't remember that voice. Going into hospice, uh I've experienced that with Jen's mom and it was hard and it is uh there's a finality to it that really takes your breath away. You know, they're in that bed or whatever situation they're in. And uh it just seems like you know they're not going to get up from that bed.

This is it whether it's a week, a month, whatever it ends up being. Describe hospice and what it connotated to you, what it meant to you.

Jen Babakhan: Sure. So by the time mom had decided that she was not going to do any kind of therapy anymore, um I think I I knew internally that we were at that place, that she was tired. It was um she ended up with a heart condition that ordinarily they would operate on, but the doctor said with her being so far down the cancer path, it just wasn't worth it. And so hospice for me um was a difficult thing to swallow, but also one that I knew was inevitable um and in a sense because I had been dreading it for so long, it was a little bit of a relief, I think, for me to be like, okay, we're in this place now and we 're going to face it head on, whatever this looks like.

Um and you know, the hospice nurses are angels. They are uh angels on earth. They are just wonderful and and they really helped us to make it as um as easy of a process as as that kind of thing can be.

Jim Daly: Well, our guest today on Focus on the Family with Jim Daly is Jen Babakhan and uh she's written a terrific book which captures her story and uh what you're hearing now, these uh wisdom uh perspectives. It's called Disrupted Finding Peace with a Parent's Terminal Illness. That's a terrific resource. Get a copy from us here at focusonthefamily.com/broadcast. Uh Jen, I appreciate your um letting us into that room uh with hospice. That can be a short time or a long time. Uh my mother-in-law lived with us and she was on hospice for the last few months. Describe um that journey of of holding on and then at some point you have to let go.

And I think it's probably different for everyone, but what was that like for you?

Jen Babakhan: Yeah, you know, by the time we were in hospice, she was conscious some of the time um unconscious for some of the time as well. But there was a day that she regained full consciousness and she looked at each of us and I'll never forget the look on her face. It was just pure peace, just pure peace. And she went around and she looked at each and every single one of us in the eye and said, I love you. And we said, we love you, you know, too. And And she said, you have to let me go.

And it was in that moment where I realized she was holding on for us. And at the same time, you know, we told her of course I remember telling her mom, you can run to be with Jesus anytime you need to. You're free to go. But I think she knew in the back of her mind that we were all just so desperate to hold on for anytime uh that we had left and um it wasn't until um I had At this point she was not conscious, but they say the last thing to go is hearing.

And the hospice nurse had come and and I had seen her suffering. You know, everyone asks is is it a peaceful death? Was it a peaceful death? And I always say death is a lot like birth. It's rarely peaceful. Um you know, it's a it's a a struggle and the body knows what it needs to do in both birth and death and it does those things. But I asked the nurse, how much longer do you think that she has? And she said, well, it could be a week, it could be longer and and I had just watched my mom just her body just worked so hard to keep her alive and I said, I sure hope for her sake it's not that long.

I said, I never thought I'd get to this point, but I I sure hope it's not. And my mom died 4 hours later with all of us around the bedside. And I think

Jim Daly: Wow.

Jen Babakhan: I truly believe that her hearing me say that, that I hoped it wasn't that long, that she knew I had come to that place of peace and that I had fully let her go because at the end of it, it's just love. You just want what's best for them and that selfishness to hold on fades away because you know that um in some sense they're always going to be with you, but you don't want them to stay if they're in in that situation.

Jim Daly: Yeah. Right. Yeah. You speak about surrendering to grief. I wanted it to set in because I think some people go, what?

Jen Babakhan: Mhm.

Jim Daly: I don't surrender to nothing. But surrendering to grief, why is that important?

Jen Babakhan: Because it's going to have its way with you whether you let it or not. And And that was the biggest lesson for me, I think, was to realize that it was going to do what it wanted to do whether I provided it space or not. So you know, those early days of grief of um just having those waves come over you and and crying and all of that, that's expected. Everyone expects that. But for me anyway, it was a year or two out, 3 years out when it a a trigger would happen, something would um spark a memory and I would just be laid out just in tears, unable to pull myself together.

And I realized there's really no other way to do the grief thing than just surrender and let it do what it needs to do because as much as we fight against it and think, I'm just going to handle it. I'm going to handle it and I'm going to get through it and it's going to be fine and you try to strong-arm your way through it, that's not actually doing the work that God intended grief to do within you. I think grief is such a softening process where God um has us become so vulnerable and it's in that vulnerability that we can feel his strength and we can feel his presence and that sense of peace.

And I just don't think there's another way to get there.

Jim Daly: Yeah. With people's good intentions, we got to hit this one because it it happens, you know, and people say things to try to make you feel better and they actually have the exact opposite impact. What are some of those coaching tips you might give to another family member, a distant family member, or maybe just a friend who's trying to help their friend go through something and you say things like it'll be all right or you know, time will heal your wound or you whatever the cliché might be. What are the good things to say and then what are those things you might not want to say?

Jen Babakhan: Right. So I think what's really unfortunately common is that when someone tells someone else that their loved one has a diagnosis or whatever, they will either I'll start with the bad first. They will either say um that they'll tell you all of the people they know that have died of that condition and I don't know why, but it's something that they do. They just They just want to share that, oh, I know so and so and they passed away from this. Or they'll tell you about the brand new um you know, natural treatment that they are absolutely sure will help heal your parent or your loved one and they don't really need what the doctor is saying they need or whatever and they think that they're being helpful.

But on the other side of that, as the person that is loving someone that's going through it, it just provides more stress and more strain. Those are things that we probably already know about. I know I researched every natural treatment, every possible thing that would help my mom um and so what I found to be the most helpful is just being there. And I found the most comfort from those who had walked this journey already themselves because they knew um what it was like in those quiet moments when you um don't have someone sitting with you and you're just sitting at home going, how is this going to go and what is this going to look like?

So I would just tell those that are kind of on the periphery that your presence is really all that's needed or just a text to say that you're thinking of them or that you're praying for them because ultimately hearing for me it's always been hearing that someone has thought about me randomly and saying a prayer for me or my mom or my family. That has meant the most and I think is the most beneficial.

Jim Daly: Yeah. And that's a good thing. I normally will PS a letter to someone who's lost a loved one just say words are inadequate. So I'm praying for simply God's peace to be with you.

Jen Babakhan: Yes.

Jim Daly: It's it's kind of the best that I can suggest for them. Um last time you mentioned your children, we kind of started in that area and your your boys were 6 and 3 when their grandmother, your mom, got that diagnosis. How old are they today and how have they continued to process that? And then how about you and your husband?

Jen Babakhan: Yeah. So my boys are now 13 and 10, almost 11. Um and I think it they've processed it um as well as can be expected. And so we now talk about my mom all the time and laugh and talk about what she would say or what she would do. Um and and there's those hard times too where you know, especially for my younger son, um he he loves playing baseball and he just says, mom, I really wish grandma could have been at one of my games. You know, and that's the that's the hard thing that that we just sit with and and yeah, that that is hard.

And and I wish she was here too for that, you know. Um so they've done they've done well in in processing it and um and my older son still has very vibrant memories of my mom and so he, you know, talks about those often and how much fun they had together. So it really has been something that as a family we uh we don't shy away from talking about her or what she would have loved or um what she would have found funny. Um and there's so much that she found funny. Um and and for my husband and I the same thing.

We we talk about her all the time and um I think it's so important. My my husband lost his father, so he understood um what it is to lose a parent. And so he has been such a delightful support in um in being there for me in all the ways that I need him to be. So yeah, it's only brought us closer.

Jim Daly: No, that's good. You mentioned this, but I do want to come back to it and end here because I think the scripture we need that context. But in John 16 22 the Lord says, you have sorrow now, but I will see you again and your hearts will rejoice and no one will take your joy from you. And that was in the context of your mom saying, I'll see you at the gate.

Jen Babakhan: Yes. Yes.

Jim Daly: What a great thought.

Jen Babakhan: Oh, absolutely, absolutely. And even on one uh really hard phone call that we were having and I was just falling apart and telling her how much I was going to miss her, um she got very determined and she said, I need you to remember these words. We will see we each other again. And I think back to that and and I know that um that to be true. I know that to be true and that's the hope that we have um that our spirits never die. We simply change addresses as that one grandmother said. And so I think if we can hold true to that that um yes, morning comes for a period, but joy comes in the morning.

It we will have that time of bliss with God and Jesus and all of our loved ones and and that's what what gets us all through.

Jim Daly: And I'm about to jump out of my chair going, yahoo. I mean, it's so true. This is what we believe and this is why this has been so good. Not easy, but you've done it in such a great way, Jen, in your book Disrupted Finding Peace with a Parent's Terminal Illness. What a great resource to help people process what they're going through. I often say it's like seeing a car accident. You're not sure if this is really happening to us, but it is. And you know, things are going to happen and it's a great guide for people to go through the loss of a parent in the right spiritual way, with the right spiritual compass.

So thanks again for being with us. It's been really good.

Jen Babakhan: Thank you for having me.

Jim Daly: Yeah. And if you're in that spot or you have a loved one in that spot, this is a great resource. Here's how we can help each other. Send a gift of any amount to Focus on the Family and we'll send you Jen's book as our way of saying thanks for partnering with us in ministry. We can also connect you with one of our caring Christian counselors if that's helpful. Grief is not an easy thing to navigate by yourself and we're here to help you any way we can.

John Fuller: Yeah, that's our heart and uh your donation allows us to uh have great impact. Here's a comment from a listener named Richard who said, Focus on the Family has been such a guiding light in my life. There have been seasons when I felt overwhelmed, alone, or unsure of the path ahead. And it was through this ministry that I began to see God's love and guidance in real practical ways.

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John Fuller: Learn more at focusonthefamily.com/broadcast. Thanks for listening to Focus on the Family with Jim Daly. I'm John Fuller inviting you back as we once again help you and your family thrive in Christ.