A hospice nurse will explain why you sometimes need to prepare to let a loved one go. If you openly talk about and prepare for death, does that show a lack of faith?
You want a meaningful devotional life. You need it. But how can you get it? Dwell: 30 Days with God in the Psalms, will help you lie down in green pastures as the goodness of His Word surrounds you, supports you, and satisfies you.