I want to tell you about a friend of mine named Autumn.
She's a beautiful African-American college student who just recently made the dean's list. Her life consists of many common things: school, work, friends, and studying. On the outside, she looks like a thriving 20-something woman.
But there's something in the corner of her soul that she's kept secret for almost a year.
Autumn was raped. And not by a stranger, but by a friend.
It shouldn't have happened to her. Going to a friend's house to watch a movie seemed like such a normal thing. Society tells us to expect danger and harm while walking down a dark street alone, not in a safe place with someone she knew.
But things got difficult when he started touching her, and then tried to kiss her, as she pushed him away. When she refused to have sex with him, it made him angry. So he raped her.
It is the same scene shocking statistics tell us is played out every two minutes in America, alone.
Autumn told me that getting over the rape was hard but what was worse was the shame that came from it. Shame convinced her that people would blame her or wouldn't believe her. She decided it was better to lock this piece of life up for a very long time.
But Autumn has decided that she doesn't want to be overcome by shame anymore.
She hears the voice of God say to her:
This was not your fault. [1Corithians 5: 1,5]
I see your pain. [Psalm 34:18]
You are not alone. [Isaiah 41:10]
Autumn's story inspires me to understand the truth: what was meant for evil, God can use for good. [Romans 8:28] Sometimes, I just don't get why things happen the way they do. It doesn't seem right -- no one should have to go through this.
But as I type this out I cannot help but think that...
Maybe today someone else will read this story and unlock a secret. Maybe today a woman will open herself to God who will speak these same comforting truths to her heart and she will begin healing. Maybe today a life will be changed forever because of the willingness of one girl to share her story with others.
Maybe today. Maybe you.
The She Seeks Team wants you to know that if you have been a victim of a sexual assault we want to cover you in prayer today. If you don't feel comfortable leaving a comment please email us at firstname.lastname@example.org and a team member will contact you.
Just like Autumn wanted to help you with sharing her story, there are so many people who would love to walk beside of you through the process of healing from a sexual assault. Below you will find a list of ministry's and help-lines that are available to you free of charge.
RAINN Hotline (Rape, Abuse, Incest National Network)
Focus on the Family
Nicki Koziarz is a girl who lives for a passionate pursuit of truth in her life. She blogs [almost] daily at www.nickikoziarz.com and would love for you to stop by and say hello.
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